MIDNIGHT WOES

I feel drawn by an inexplicable force to tell you the truth I don't think I  wanna fight it  or rather I don't know how because in retrospect isn't this what we are all looking for? that force that applies Newton's second law to your love life , you know, rate of change of momentum is inversely proportional to something something I forget the rest but am sure you get the point of the whole argument . We're not in a physics class after all and my mission is to talk about the more complex things, matters of the heart. I'm no expert but  then again I'm no rookie to the game either . Guys in all honesty half the time I don't think anyone of us has an idea what the hell they are doing ,I bet you're just hoping that things will turn out fine, I know I am , but then again that's just me being me. I do have a tendency to over dramatize things, maybe it's because I'm a hopeless romantic(yes we still exist and come in short supply ). Regardless everyone wants to find someone who they think best understands and compliments them and can you blame them? I mean in a world where more often than not things always go to s*** what's to say that I don't deserve to settle for nothing less than my soul mate? is that really too much to ask of this existence we all call life? I don't think so, in fact I think it's the least that we should get out of life , right? But what do I know, I haven't lived long enough to doubt or realize if there is such a thing as a soul mate, which on the other hand makes me the perfect candidate to analyze the situation because  I'm not tainted with the perception that the world imposes on a person making them a skeptic or a no-believer. I see love in its pure form , free of all blemish untouched by impurities of old age and pessimism of hurt. Yes , I have stared into the abyss and I discovered something beautiful beyond all comparison. Now my only question is , how will I know when I finally find her? will I let her slip out of my hands to realize only to late or will I be one the wise and recognize what is right in front of my eyes? tick tock tick tock, am laughing because I have no idea. Its late at night  and  here I am typing away ,guess this must have been weighing on my mind or maybe it's someone who triggered it , well so things are meant to remain a mystery , to you guys any way. i'll leave you with one of the classics to help you remember

Am just sayinG^TM

PERFECTLY INSYNC

For everything you are makes me whole when i am not, for what am I without you if not a shadow of myself desperately grasping for a meaning in this so called existence.  I am overwhelmed by emotions that are manifested in my actions unable to abate my affections but for this I have no apologies for never in the history of time was love ever a subject of remorse, not in my eyes anyway. I will plunge myself into the abyss oblivious to all sense of reason for what is the point if my heart can not find a matching beat.

Of late I've been thinking about how some couples just seem to seamlessly mesh into each others lives without any hitches, to be perfectly In-sync if ever there was such a thing and it left me wondering. Is it really that effortless or is it like a clock, a composed exterior run by a complex system constantly in check to ensure you always see the right time. This got me on the path of self reflection, i kept wondering how come I have never been as lucky,  now I know for a fact at some point all of us have asked ourselves the very same question sad thing is we really find the answer. Probably because we are looking at it wrong , what we should be asking what can I do to be as lucky.

People need to stop waiting for miracles and wishing on stars, linking any and every love experience to fate and luck. Its always been about how much effort we are willing and able to put to make what is a lot of work look like something that's always been in-sync.

Am just sayinG^TM

REINCARNATION OF LOVE

I used to be a believer but the magic just seems to have fade away , there are no more grasped moments, no more stolen glances ,the illusions of a dream long gone and what is left behind is a hollow shell of everlasting "what if's " and dried out eyes cause the tears don't change a thing. When did we forget how to love , when did it become about something less than all we ever hoped for? Am tired , am weary and quite frankly I just want to give up and let go of it all, maybe I lost my chance once upon a long ago time and as hard as may look there is nothing to find.

I used to sit and let my imagination run wild with cinematic scenes of happily ever after but all I ever saw was the sad endings with broken hearts and half said goodbyes. I cannot give a heart that I do not have, I cannot find a heart that I lost in search of love , so what do I do? Abandon the quest ? fight on till I can fight no more? I don't know , maybe I'll experience an epiphany and it will all be clear or am maybe am looking at miss right but I just don't know it.

There are tears in my eyes, it seems to hurt to remember when the past is all we have and the future looks bleak void any hopes of a better tomorrow, absent the chance of new beginnings. But i have always been a dreamer undeterred by life's relentless mission to discourage. I believe in going past the breaking point to the unknown roads of least resistance ( i'll be damned if i known what that means ).

Talk of the devil *epiphany* so what was the first time like? What made any one of you believe in love for the first time? I remember , I couldn't say a word every time she was near me, how my heart would skip a beat when I caught a glimpse of her. It was magical and I would be a fool not to want to ever feel that way again, like anything is possible and the only thing that limits you is time because the hours apart feel like forever and the moments together are fleeting , gone before you had the chance to savor them. Who remembers their first true kiss, the one that swept you off your feet made you shiver with anticipation, when you paused and stared into each other's eyes and every promise you made meant more than words could ever say ?

I remember it ,what it felt like to be helplessly in love or rather i glimpse at it through windows and the memories slowly sip back in, like words to a song long forgotten but always kept at heart. My body quivers, i am at inception again and have found someone who reminds me why i believed in love all those many years ago. I smile at the idea of it, befuddled by the simple memory of her beauty ever so resplendent. To her i will give my heart and the rest will surely follow.


Am just SayinG TM

A PRINCIPLED MAN

Perception is an attribute awarded to every complex being , it defines the way we look at the world in our own little way. It is our compass propagating us in a direction we deem as right, but the probabilities that avail themselves with every conscience decision are endless and so decisions cannot be solely based on individual world views. Yet I believe in the art of being principled , decisions based on personal points of view with a moral compass that surpasses the simple idea of  conscience decisions given that they are mere facts that are consistent and unwavering . We are faced with different scenarios every waking second and the choices we make define us, points of view concerning an issue cannot change instantaneously unless influenced by external factors but even then we need to find a way to stand our ground despite the situations we are bombarded with.  We learn to go past our breaking points to find our inner strength enabling us to withstand anything that comes our way. Principles help us to work towards our goals without the distractions of day to day living, like a light at the end of the tunnel consistently guiding us as we wade through antagonizing happenings of life. So I'll ask, what shapes our principles? In a sense what makes us who we are, the face behind the mask. This is my theory, we are gradually shaped by experiences , inclined to act the way we do based on how the world around us reacts and limited by the much we know. It never hurts to have an open mind allowing for direction where necessary for in every day that we live we learn something new.Try to be the best you that you can be.

Am just sayinG™.

In the Moment

There are times we just close our eyes impervious to the world around us , wrapped up in a cocoon of our own making. Where things supersede the complicated day to day living if only to get away from it all even for just a little while. It's not easy wading through life without escaping from it every once or twice, in everything we do we always need to stop and breath lest we burn ourselves out. This applies to all spheres of life and the irony is some of us don't apply the philosophy. We push well past the breaking point with the illusion that it gets better ahead, to these I say " the moment that we live in holds more weight than the future we so hope for ."

Man is a fragile being and as such should be treated as one. Don't always be in a hurry to get ahead take a minute or two to smell the roses, feel the sun on your face , the wind through your hair ( this one might not apply to all of us lol). Learn to appreciate the little things lest the moments pass you by and all you're left with is bitter regret and unfulfilled dreams. Ask yourself a simple question , if I was to die today could I say I truly lived ? Of course there are ambitions you will fall short of but did u do the things that really mattered ?
Do the things that bring you bliss ,act stupid , be a little crazy if you need to be. The way I see it , we live once but regret forever so why not take a chance on life.

Am just sayinG™